Its starting again. I wont let myself get to that stage again. I will be skinny. I will be beautiful. My face has started to puff. My legs have started to "tree trunk". I have the inspiration i need.
I need to slow down on my eating patterns. Im working a lot so im eating anything and everything i see. I first need to shrink my stomach. Than i can slowly reduce what i shove into my mouth. I want to be beautiful so desperately on the outside i think that its rotting the inside.... Lord help me be the best person i can. Because this half shell of a person isnt enough anymore and im so scared the darkness is creeping back, back inside of me.
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Sounds like you've had some emotional eating. I have that problem more than anything. If i'm even slightly upset i eat like a fool. We can overcome that though. You're right about shrinking your stomach and then not even being able to eat as much. We've done it before; we can do it again.
Love the metaphor of round and round. Yep stop the world and let me off!! Sometimes things r so crazy!!
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