Sticking to the new diet regime is difficult. More difficult than i expected after the first week. Im getting hunger headaches and eating the cookies again.
But my eating amounts and habits are still much betterthan a fortnight ago and im eating less.
Its just hard to hide my hunger from my work collegues. My mouth is too loose and i always say things like 'im so hungry!' or just stare hard out at people eating food i would LOVE to binge on!
Ive been to scared to jump back on the scales to see if my weight has gone up. I was so proud of myself breaking into the 50s.
I saw my ex this weekend and used with him. I dont know if i loved it or hated it. I loved the feeling of just not being hungry at all! Of my stomach growling because i hadnt eaten anything all day but i jsut wanted hungry! And all that energy...but than it wore off and i just felt edgey sad and...weird. so tired!
Im not drinking as much though, but im living for the weekends when i can get pissed off my face.
Im waiting for a new challenge to come into my life. I want change. I scares the hell outta me but i love it...God my posts are boring!