I dont know if i mentioned it before but the 'friend' who was suppose to stay over last friday night and go out with me didnt end up coming. I said i didnt care...but i obviously did and just didnt want to admit it to myself, cause that night i went out and got wasted with my bro's friends who are kind of my friends and i mean absolutely wrecked, and apparently i was a bitch/princess to them. Oops!
I dont remember being like that, but than i never remember anything when i get drunk. Apparently i pissed this one chick off so much she wanted to bash me and had to go away and sober up so she wouldnt hit me. I dont remember that at all, although i do remember my mentality being really angry and frustrated. I didnt want to be with them, but i didnt want to be home alone and i guess i just lost control. The big smoke is really getting to me i cant handle it down here with no friends, no job and nothing to do all day. I want to go back to my home town. Im tired of being a hermit! And im becoming really depressed...maybe there is a way of channeling this sorrow into weight loss?
Today I did better again. Im trying hard not to snack but its really hard, im like a cow i just graze!
Breakfast: Cereal with milk and strawberries
Lunch: Salad and tuna, 1/2 bake patatoe
Snacks: apple, grapes, 1x cookie, 1x cracker, carrot stick
I'll try my hardest not to eat anything else today and i also went for a 90min walk today so....